Ok heres whats up. My life is finaly coming together. I never thought things would end up the way they are now. I m madly in love with my beautiful girlfriend. I would do anything for her. I m almost done with collage i have 9 days left, and most inportantly i also just got a job. i start in 2 weeks so my first monday out of school i start my job. and i m also doing my externship there so i m getting a paid externship aswell! this is so awsome! I just got done last night sending my girlfriend back to astoria but she'll be back again soon. It never gets easyier i cry everytime but i m not afraid to show it anymore. I want her to know how much she means to me so i just let it out when i need to. I am a complety diffrent person than i was a year ago, she has changed my life for ever and I will never stop loving her, she is my reason to live.


Ok so lately i ve been in a bit of a shit hole. My Girlfriend who i love more than anything left for astoria on july 26. ever sence that day i have missed her and thought about her ever second. I ve missed her so much for the first week she was gone i didnt eat anything and after that week up tell now i get sick when i eat. for 2 weeks if i ate it i barfed it back up. now i just barf up breakfast. but it still sucks and all my tast buds are fucked up from barfing all the time to food taste like shit now. I miss here so fucking much i m going crazy. She is going to be gone for 8 months to a year. the good news is that she can leave on a friday at 4pm and be gone from there all weekend and then be back sunday by 10pm so i m going up to pick her up tonight so we can be with each other for the weekend. i m so happy about that and i cant wait to hold and kiss her again.